Boldly

As I walked and talked with the Lord I wondered about God and how unworthy I am to request to be in His presence. Yet, my heart is troubled and in need of wisdom so I walk and wait on the Lord.

It is a nice day for a walk. The weather is perfect. Some leaves have just begun to change yet there are leaves that have already fallen to the ground. Still, plenty of green and an abundance of flowers line the path as I walk. The sky is a beautiful blue and the big puffy white clouds look like floating mountains.

I ponder about the thing that weighs so heavy on my heart. How can it consume me while I'm surrounded by such beauty? I bring it to the Lord and ask for what I want. I end my prayer with "if it be Your will, Father; if it be Your will".

I walk some more and wonder if I believe that. I say it because I know He is God and I am not yet I also know His word instructs me to come boldly before His thorn. So I sit on a picnic table and bow my head. BOLDLY, BOLDLY, I make my request to the Lord. As I do a peace comes over me that I did not have at the end of my last prayer.

I cry. When the tears stop I know that His will, will be done. He knows the desires of my heart and no matter the outcome of my prayer, I will delight in Lord always.