Sex, babies, and...

So I have been up since 3:30 AM. Can't sleep. Kept trying but too many thoughts going through my head. Did all the normal tricks to fall back to sleep but nothing helped. After 2 hours of that I have just given up.

I had a thought during that time that; what if God completely took away every woman's ability to have children. For a moment assume that man has figured out how to reproduce without women being part of the creation of this new life. What happens deep in your gut when you think about that. I start to cry. Do you think our world would change? Do you think that the way women feel, act, and behave would change? Do you think if the soul of women changed that our entire society would change? I do. Would this be good change?

So not being able to sleep I get up and start going through the mail that is sitting on my desk from the last week. I remember the days when I thought I was busy but now I know those were the lazy days. The days I could actually find time to open the mail every day. But I have now strayed from my thoughts so let me bring it back. In the mail I received a newsletter from my obgyn doctor's office (coincidence or God-incidence?). 2 pages completely devoted to "mission hysterosocopy". They are going into third world countries and sterilizing all the women they can. They are proud of this and proud of how they are "helping". I really think they believe it but I find myself very ANGRY.

First of all they went in experimenting and perfecting "new" procedures to accomplish this surgery and it will be generations before anyone really knows what side effects will result. Second what makes us women? Sure we are more than our female body parts but we are uniquely female by them. And since when did being female mean it was bad to bear children. Who is getting all these women pregnant anyways? Why aren't they going into third world countries and snipping and clipping the men? (Sorry if that offends some, wait - NO I'M NOT!) Really someone tell me why!!!!!! Would men in these countries line themselves up to willingly be made sterile or would that not sound so good to them? And if not, why not? I'll tell you why, because they want to have children. Maybe they don't want to raise them but they certainly puff up like roosters talking about their many children.

AND, if we want the women of the world to bear complete and total responsibility for their fertility without men being involved then why aren't we going in and teaching them about their fertility. It isn't rocket science. There are only certain times during the month a women can get pregnant. Would it be so wrong to empower them to say no to sex during those times, even with husbands? Would the men in these countries, or this one for that matter, allow that or are women not to be allowed to be in charge of their sexuality. Are women not "smart" enough to handle this? I feel a rant coming on so I will stop with one more thought that plagues me almost all the time.

Why do we in this country and other countries, think women are stupid? Why don't we give them credit for being intelligent, thinking, human beings? Oh sure, women can have this job or that job but have a say in their sexuality or learning about Natural Family Planning and choosing to abstain from sex when they could get pregnant. No that would be too hard for them. Let's just sterilize them, that is easier and then we aren't burdening them or society with more children. Yeah, let's not teach them about their fertility or invent tools to help them understand when they are fertile. No, they might misuse that power.

This is ludicrous, insanity, and wrong. It's wrong by God's standards and by human standards.

And don't think this is just happening with this topic. Don't even get me started on how this country protects a woman's right to an abortion as strongly as it protects the abortionists right NOT to give her all the information she needs before making that decision. No heaven forbid she should be told about the possible emotional and physical risks, heaven forbid she should be given information on the developing child. No let's just tell her it is easy and quick ("that will be $400 please") and let's just tell her its "not a baby" but a "bunch of cells or zygote or embryo", you know something she might not understand. Let's not tell the baby's heart has been beating for quite some time. No she couldn't handle that. The truth would be too hard for her, the truth is what will cause her emotional distress. Maybe so much that she would not make the "right" choice. I mean what if she went out and decided to continue that pregnancy? What would be the result then? Crap, another baby would be born.

Okay, I think I'm done. But maybe if you made it this far you can see why falling back to sleep just was not going to happen. This really is just the tip of the iceberg of thoughts I have on these topics.

Oh yeah, and now I think I have to find a new doctor.