"This is so hard"

I find that I have been saying "this is so hard" a lot lately. So I'm wondering...what is that about?

Am I overwhelmed with all the things I'm trying to accomplish? Am I in over my head or trying to do things beyond my skills? Am I just lazy?

As I ponder on these questions I look again at the quote that so often goes through my head.

"This is so hard"

I notice what it doesn't say. It doesn't say "this is TOO hard". I'm guessing that since I chose the word "so" and not that word "too" that I am not giving up or giving in. I'm just expressing a statement that what I'm trying to do requires a lot of thinking power or physical power or more than what I would typically give to a thing.

And I start considering that maybe the things I'm involved in are hard. And maybe that is good and the pain I'm expressing is one of growth. Perhaps if I stopped worrying about burn-out and just plowed forward I would find that the thing wasn't really as hard as I once thought it would be.

I don't know; but all this thinking about it has me once again saying to myself that "this is so hard."