Tomorrow

My grief runs deep this evening as I wait for tomorrow A young woman confused and desperate knows tomorrow the "appointment" will come. She's been beaten down by threats and fear. Some self inflicted but most imposed by others. She doesn't "want" to have an abortion, she doesn't "want" to be pregnant. She just wants her life back. Sadly that won't ever happen.

Her mother can't sleep. She's been beaten down too. Mom is spent and has nothing left. Unable to be strong for her daughter she gives in to the pressure too. Mom can't sleep, she will drive daughter to the abortion clinic she knows too well. What pain must she feel as she drives down the street where her children died while still in her womb. Mom's wounds are old and mom's wounds are fresh. Her pain runs so deep she can't feel anything at all.

All that can be said has been said. There is nothing more anyone can do. So where do my tears come from? Who am I crying for? Is it the daughter or the mom that makes my heart break? I prayed and I've cried and I've prayed some more. Tomorrow a baby will die. No wait 3,700 babies will die tomorrow. 3,700 and 1.

Tomorrow a young woman will take a pregnancy test and cry. It was her last chance. They've tried it all. Every test, every procedure, every option. But she will learn that her hearts desire to birth a child will never come true. She will mourn her baren womb. She will look her husband in the eyes and feel she failed him. He will feel helpless to heal her wounded heart. They will try for years to adopt a baby but sadly there will be none. The babies have all been aborted.

Tomorrow an older woman will die. She will have lost her desire to live. She will have given up on fighting her grief from years ago. The shame from her abortions wins out. She can't take another night of bad dreams and haunting memories. She didn't know that suicide was a risk factor for abortion. She had never read the statistics that more post-abortive women commit suicide than any other woman group. She didn't know that she would never get her life back as she had once hoped.

Who are my tears for? Who breaks my heart more?

When did children become disposable? What civilized society determined that abortion was okay? I sat as a mother explained why her daughter must have an abortion. Mom saw her grandchild just the day before during the sonogram. Yet, she does not understand. Her little boy played in the room and we discussed how someday he will be a man. All this little boy needs is time to grow. Kind of like her grandchild in the womb? That baby has everything it will need to be an adult some day. Right now it just needs time in the womb to grow.

I'm tired of the old argument about how if abortion wasn't legal women will be dieing in back allies. Really? Possibly. 3,700 a day? I doubt it. Women are dieing now from abortion. A few physically, thousands emotionally.

Our societies complete and utter acceptance of abortion on demand has turned in to an ugly monster disguised as a cute little puppy. And that puppy is hiding behind some bigger dogs who are getting richer every day. When will the mask come off? When will good men stop doing nothing so evil won't keep succeeding.

"Abortion is a reflection that society has failed women." - Patricia Heaton

Amen sister!